Happy Ever After - I wish ;)

A friend is getting married, yet I could not attend because I have comitted to something earlier on. To make up for not being there on her big day, me and an officemate came up with this video, (she actually wanted to ask somebody else to do, pay $$) but we figured out it would be our honour to do that for her :)

Amacam? Can I have a second career in videography? Well, my friends did all the hardwork, I was responsible with the storyline (sort of).

This friend actually brought all the props during the pre-wedding photoshoot, as according to her most of the wedding photographers + studios only gave a pretty much commercialised packaged.

Good for her, I think the photos came out fine...

Wishing her and beau a lifelong happy marriage ;)

p/s: something wrong with my connection..can you play the video?

Away

Its dark outside, the weather has not been kind these past few days. And each day I think I am feeling more like the weather, all dark and gloomy. People seemed to shun away from me. I am actually good at driving people away. Not blaming anybody but I noticed that these past few years I drove many people out of my life.

I am the type that won't work hard in a relationship (meaning friends only). I'll initiate a few meet, but after a while when people keep bailing me out, I walked away. I did not tried to mend whatever that needs to be mend. Same at work I guess. People don't tell me stuffs, people did not come and find me to gossip. I'll be the last one to know about anything, promotions, moves, who is dating who etc...

• friend who is doing Masters passed by a set of questionnaire to the rest of the girls, but not to me
• my movie buddy no longer ask me to go out for movie with them

I drove people away and darn good at that. So what are you still doing here?

Edisi Mintak Ampun...

Is it just me or the day just gets shorter? Work not done yet (it never will eh?) Yet I could not concentrate anymore. This year, have not sent out a single cards at all, jangan kata pos, hand delivered pon takdak. Today, albeit me complaining on shorter day, it will be a long one, will be driving back to SP after iftar in KL.

bazar kat SP

I found this interesting stall at Tasik Permaisuri's bazar

Nak Upin Ipin, nak Barbie, nak Ultraman..semua ada..

Sudah semestinyalah lepas post gambar ni, ada orang tambah sedih dan sayu...oleh itu di hari baik bulan baik ni, hamba menyusun jari memohon ampun dan maaf to all out there who reads the blog (adakah?). For all the wrongdoings, this that I wrote that may have hurt your feelings one way or another. And with that here's a virtual card for you. (Kalo kak tek nak print pastu display kat dinding pon boleh jugak!! ;0)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri and have fun celebrating with your loved ones, be safe, no matter where you are.

Field of Diamonds

I had this in my mailbox, as usual, this friend of mine (Asma) never fails to amuse me, she did not read my blog, but thought that it would be good to share it here :

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This morning I had a very delightful chat with my friend Mr Venezuela.

He told me he was happily married for 35 years. That in itself is older than most of us. I remarked how young he must have been when he married to have 35 years with his wife. And then, as most parents or in his case grandparent, decided to give me advice:

Asma, when I met my wife, I knew she was a diamond. She was a rough diamond. I wanted to polish her and make her perfect for me. The trouble with youngsters these days, they want to meet someone who is already perfect. Someone who meets all their criteria. They don’t realize that nobody is perfect. You have to work very hard to keep something, to mould something, to educate and nurture something to be perfect. Like diamonds. They are in its original form, carbon. They are raw. With a kazillion years of heat and pressure, they turn into diamonds. And still, they are still raw. You have to wash, polish, put in on a ring. Then it’s perfect.

(Ok I added that last 2 sentences. LOL)

He reiterated to yours truly: You have to find the raw diamond. Find the potential. Together you both work at being perfect.

Asma: I do look for raw diamonds.
Mr Venezuela: Asma, you need to differentiate between raw diamonds and a fool’s gold. Do you know what a fool’s gold is?
Asma: An idiot’s gold….*chuckle*
Serious looking Mr Venezuela: Be serious.
Bored Asma: Alritey. Fake gold.
Mr Venezuela: Yes, it’s gold that looks like gold but really isn’t. It’s people who appear perfect but really are not.
Now I have a story to tell you.


Asma: It’s not bedtime yet *chuckle*
Mr Venezuela: Asma…
Asma: Ok ok go on
Mr Venezuela: There once was a man who was rich. One day he went to see a fortune teller. The fortune teller predicted that he will find a lot of diamonds. So he searched in many continents. Spent all his money. He found no diamonds. He then passed away. The fortune teller came looking for him. Instead, he found the rich man’s son working the family field. When he asked the son whether the father had found his diamond, the son replied no. Suddenly, the son’s watchamacallit (I forgot what tool he was using) hit something. Upon digging, he uncovered carbon. Do you know what I’m telling you?


Asma: The diamond was in his backyard all along.
Mr Venezuela: Exactly. See Asma, sometimes we search the world to find the perfect person, the perfect job, the perfect everything. Sometimes it’s right under our noses.


Asma: But I don’t have a yard…KIDDING! So what happened to the son?
Mr Venezuela: He became one of the biggest diamond manufacturers or something .


Asma: I get your point. Thanks. The only thing in front of me right now is my PC monitor and under my nose is my keyboard. That isn’t really what I was looking for…
Mr Venezuela: Asma…
Asma: CHUCKLE

MORAL:


1) Find the raw diamond
2) Mould it with patience & heart
3) Don’t be duped by a fool’s gold
4) Don’t have to look far, it may be right in front of you

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My reply to her : Alaa......susah...I need to get myself a rough diamond detector….even for the closest diamond, I wouldn’t know how to tell ;p

p/s: thanks for sharing :)

2nd grade...

You are a second grade friend cum ex BFF when....

1. The only updates of the other person's latest happenings, you'll get to know via blogs and FB, not in the random (inpromptu) meet up that you used to have.
2. You will no longer get invites to do fun things together (tgk wayang ke..makan2 ke...)
3. You need to book the other person's time 3 weeks in advance.
4. Cancellation will not come with apology, not even tentative date unless you asked for it.
5. That person won't feel anything celebrating birthday without you.
6. No more foolish emails flying around that can distract you from work.
7. You stop talking about future travel plans together.
8. You basically stop talking.

Enough said, you are second grade...hhm...now it sounds like takde grade langsung nih...

p/s: this does not apply to friends I knew via blog ;)

Happy Birthday to You...

Today is a birthday of someone who used to be close to me. We were classmates for 7 years and somehow after graduation we parted ways and did not met. We did not mantain the contacts anymore. Something happened I guess, that made things the way we are. We used to talk for hours to end about all the things in the world. From current issues, to hopes and dreams, everything...

To date, still my one and only meaningful conversations I ever had is with this person. We are similar in lot of ways but still two very different people. Now I miss this person a lot. The reason I remember so much is that our birthdays is exactly 2 weeks apart, so we never forget each others. I wish this person all the best, may Allah bless you, though I know you don't read this, but this is just a wish from a friend to another.

*Hate that I am being melancholic comes July 14th..every single year...

Funny Wedding Questions

A friend sent this to me, fresh from the person herself,

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As usual, you get people asking you many questions at weddings, especially if your younger sister is getting married before you. Here are some of the popular questions that were posed to me in no particular order (and some were rephrased):

Q1: How come you let your sister marry before you?
A1: Oh well, if my sister finds a boat before I do, why not let her jump first? :)

Q2: What did your sister give you (for langkah bendul)?
A2: Nothing. I'm not into her or her fiance bribing me to get married :)

Q3: How come your sister's nose is different than your's?
A3: (pause) Well, I guess Allah loves diversity. I love my nose. Don't you? :P

Q4: So lepas ni your turn la?
A4: I hope so. But if my youngest sister goes first then that's ok. Marriage is not a competition for our family :0)

Q5: Are you single because you are choosy?
A5: I'm hardly choosy. I am very particular that the person is MALE, heterosexual, a Muslim or wants to be a Muslim. (Then, I would like him to have good iman, akhlak and adab.) Okla, he has to be funnier than me! ;-)

Q6: Do you have a particular type?
A6: Yes. The person has to be MALE, heterosexual, a Muslim or wants to be a Muslim. Didn't we cover this? :-)

Q7: What is the price of the hantaran for you and your siblings?
A7: We're pretty cheap. Most of the time my parents leave it to the groom's family.

Q8: When do we get to meet the special guy?
A8: When he finds me I'm sure we'll let you know :)

Q9: Do you think you are too focused on your career?
A9: That is untrue. I can decide to leave any time. I would like to be a housewife cum investor. Houses are easy to find. The wife status will come.

Q10: Are you not worried that your sisters are all getting married?
A10: I can't worry over things I cannot control. I'll get PIMPLES! :P

What can I say? I love laughing my heart out.

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Me? I feel you too my friend, we are in the same boat..hahaha...funny how people just could not accept a younger sister got married, leaving us the older ones still single, I wonder though...dosa ke? ;)

Candak Sotong Weh!!!

Always wanted to do this since I watched Majalah 3 back in school days. So when my friend Jija offered me to join she and her ex-classmate, I jumped right in ;)

We depart from KL at 10pm on Friday nite. Believe it or not this is my first time taking bus at Hentian Putra (I don't have that many east coast connection). Reach KT around 5 am and Jija's friend, Baya pick us up and we crashed at her place in Hulu Terengganu. Later that day around 3.30 pm, we made a move to Jeti Lembaga Perikanan at Chendering (some 20 minutes away from KT).

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There were 8 of us altogether, another 3 girls were Jija's classmate, and the rest were friend of one of the classmate. Simply put, I went on this adventure with total strangers (apart from Jija)

We depart around 5.00 pm. The boat is quite comfortable, handled by 3 men. It has its own pantry, sleeping place, 2nd tier sleeping place, and a place to do 'small business'. I dare not do 'big business' in the open sea ;p

We heard the pakcik were betting how long can we survived without falling sick. According to the non first timers, last time they went, they threw up almost immediately after the boat moves. This time we took the anti-seasick meds. So we were still smiling and laughing till we reach the target area, some 1.5 hours away from the jetty.

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The pakcik help us all to set up the 'candat' and taught us how to 'candat' sotong (squid fishing). The guys gets the first squid, none of the girls gets any yet, and the skies quickly turned dark.

I was getting seasick, my friend Jija has already vomitted twice. I could not look for fear I will feel sick too.

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One of the pakcik prepared dinner, it was white rice, with kari ayam and fresh fried squid. I took a taste at the squid, but I could not even finish one small pieces. I can feel that it sort of get stuck in my throat. I know that if I continues eating, high chance that I will throw up. With that I did not eat dinner. The rest was happily digging in (except for 2-3 of us). The fresh squid actually tasted sweet, its a pity I could not digest it.

Happy faces gets to eat!!

At close to 10pm, I finally managed to catch my one and only squid!! I caught the medium sized, the other guy gets the biggest. The length is from his hand to this elbow, that long!!

See how big it is? Compare to the ones that we see in the market..

After around 12pm nobody gets any squid anymore, there were few occasion, the squid was eaten by big fish, hence scared the rest of the squid to come nearby us. One of the pakcik suggested we change venue. We move to another area where he sets baits for fish. We ends up getting two big fish.

Me posed with one of the fishes, a haruan tasik, weighted 35 pounds (~15 kg)

It took the pakcik and his friends almost 30 minutes fighting with the fish before we can actually brought it up. That was around 4 am in the morning.

Come 6 am, we were preparing to get back to Jetty, again one of the pakcik (seriously I don't know their name...sorry..) fried us the squid, and this time I can eat it. The plate was swipped clean by us in no time ;)

Hungry people early in the morning....

Group pics as soon as we made on shore safely ;)

As both Jija and I traveled by bus, we could not bring back any bounty. Plus, we have to rush back to KL. The rest went on to Baya's house, and I think they barbecued the squids and fish.

Baya drop us in KT, Jija and I showered backpackers style, at a surau, before we went to Pasar Payang to buy some keropok lekor to bring back. We also sampled some local delicacies, but most of it are too sweet for my taste buds.

I left Terengganu that day with a new adventure, I plan to make a family trip back here again and maybe go for another 'candak sotong' adventure.

This is my favorite picture, taken at almost sunrise, explains one thing the best, Serenity...

We're Hunters!!

This is my first full blown treasure hunt. Well actually we named it Walk-a-Hunt. It was organised by the co's Sports Club. We started off in PD, at 8 am.

When: Last Sat, 22nd May

Where : In Awana Genting

Who : My team, 3 of us,

Team name : Proton XX (all of us driving Iswara and all are girls!!)

It was raining very heavily and alhamdulillah by the time we hit the highway, the rain stops. But it continues to drizzle as we enter MRR2 and Karak Highway. It was a very misty drive all the way up (I was driving). We reach Awana at 10am, waited for the rest of pack to arrive. It was later followed by briefing by organiser (some event company) and flag off at 1230 pm.

During the briefing, I figured that the question is really tough!!

my colleagues (the guys, with wife and kids. the two boys are the cutest, plus they were born 3 days apart)

Comprises of 3 sections, questions with clue and we were required to find the answers within certain area. Second one was pictures, they took a close up shot of certain things/signage and ask us to match where the actual stuffs is located and third of course the treasure. We had a copied strategy from the winning team last year. We took a lot of snaps and group together to match with the clues. I mean no point walking around and forgetting what you saw rite?

One of the shot I took, one of the answer is in this pics...

It was damn hard!!Time given was 4 hours, but by the second hours I can see many people kinda loose their radar already, as the place is not that big, but the questions were tough, to the point we just bantai most of the stuffs.

Hard at work...tengah bantai mana yang tak tau....hahaha....

After the hunt ended, me and my hsemate crashed and dinner was served at 8pm. When they revealed the answers, we knew we did not have any chance of winning, but to our surprise, we got 7th place out of 30+ teams that were competing!! awsome!!

After that we went up, and managed to catch Shrek 4, double thumbs up, am so watching the 3D with my sis ;) Went back at 2 am!!

Anaz tag along as his team mates pergi berjudi ;p

We sat at 2nd row from screen...nak sangat....

The next morning after breakfast, we check out and went back again, but we did not enter the theme park, as we were kinda tired. At 12pm we already headed back to PD. Stopped by Gombak for a quick lunch and reach PD on 3 pm.

Since I am holding the camera, not many of my pictures available.

We plan to join again next year, best!!!

To a Very Dear Friend

Friend,

I know you are hurting, probably confused, and frustrated at the same time. I would too if I were you. But hang in there. We've been friends so long...this one maybe our biggest test (you would have thought doing a Masters while working is hard..) but this is the hardest. The test of friendship. We are practically family, sisters, born in the same year, although by different parents.

We lived more than half of our lives together, lets not make this one test the end of it. For the sake of all of us..Nothing can beat celebrating life with you and the rest of the girls. So, for now, hang in there, just bear with us.

This (whatever this maybe) will pass us by, and like I said before, the next thing we know, we would probably be laughing about this over a good dinner, like we did many many times already.

Hang on dear, we will always be there with you, and we'll figure something out to get all these cleared up. ;)

Me and My Big Mouth

I am very introvert, would not open up to new people. Am more vocal here in the cyberspace. I would only voice to people that I am comfortable with. And beneath my thin lips, more often than not, I may have hurt other people. Those who are close to me would know that I meant no harm, no pun intended.

I was in this thread in FB, all of it ex-ROTU gang an time after time we would say hi to each other and inform about the latest happening in our lifes. One of the guys just got married and he was sort of telling people how good it is to be married, and keeps on asking the juniors to quickly get married. If it is just one time, I don't think I would be very annoyed, but he keeps on repeating it and the tone of 'ke best-an' kahwin is more the *** part rather than marriage as a whole.

So me and my big mouth (or rather my itchy fingers), started responding to the thread...

There it goes, the commotion for the day...in a way I feel bad having written all that, but I really feel that we should be constantly be reminded of the intention of marriage in the first place ;), at least from Islamic perspective.

In Sickness and In Health...

We (my colleague and I) have been going to KPJ Seremban after work for 2 days in a row already. Hopefully we don't have to go there today. Two of my senior colleagues were admitted. One due to chest pain, and after diagnosis, it is a heart attack. Apparently one of the veins has two blockage. She underwent angiogram and was disharged yesterday. The same day another senior colleague was admitted due to abdominal pain. After check up, it is confirmed she had kidney stone in her urinary tract and she is now pregnat. Therefore the Dr could not conduct x-ray to determine the exact location and size.

Nowadays, we see people dropping like flies, mostly due to common diseases. My colleague, the one with the heart attack is actually an active person. She always ride bikes, jog and she rarely eats out. But still, she gets it. What is the determining factor to stay away from all this illness? My thinking is combination of good lifestyle, healthy eating habit (yeah...cut down on the seafood y'all...that will settle in your veins) and last but not least pray hard!!

I am for sure struggling on the lifestyle bit. Its very tempting to use the elevator instead of staircase even just one floor away. I arrive to work quite early and always park at the nearest spot, so why not park a little bit further, and walk a bit? hhmmm...worth a try..

Moving On...

I see the tell tale signs, but am not sure, and it is confirmed today. Anyhow I'll still move on. Nothing much I can do about it. Not gonna joepardise a relationship because of this. Accept the fact that we are human, and people makes choices even if it broke someone else's heart.

Move on...

The Day That Was....

I had a good day yesterday too... Like dieya, I attended my Spanish class. Am in A2 now..weee...after one year hiatus, it all got a little bit rusty. So Friday nite I bought a Spanish dictionary (bijak tak? esok nak kelas, malam ni baru beli..hahaha)

So I went to the class, new professor, te llamas Ladis. Whole class is filled with women !! We did revision, and after the first hour, things are starting to come back to me..I wasn't that rusty after all ;)

In the night, I went to PJ, for a tahlil arwah. I had quite a detour before getting to PJ as I went to pick up arwah's mother in Serdang. We get into PJS2 area just nice, but locating the actual lane is very confusing. PJS2/14 is not next to PJS2/15. So in the end, we passed by the entrance 3 times before actually making the right turn to make it for the tahlil.

Her passing was a blessing in disguise, as it unites some of the old faces that we lost contact since we commissioned in 2002. It has been 8 years since we parted ways. Though many could not make it to various comitment issue, the turn out is not that bad as well.
Some pixies...

Those who came...

Geng Cik Kiah dah start sesi bersembang.. :)

All ladies who attended

Me and Buntang (Farez)-last AJK standing, the rest could not make it.

p/s: thanks dieya for the fridge magnet ;) And yesterday was my sis b'day but she did not even know I have a blog, so no need to wish here then..hahaha...

Ain't Life Interesting?

Wanted to update this but ran out of ideas. Currently watching the AI Denver Audition and suddenly it hits me!!! My sis text me earlier and told me Kris Allen is coming to KL!!!! Day : 8th Feb (freaking working day) , and I am in the middle of unit shutdown now, and no chance of even going back this weekend. Also, to make matters worst, the performance tickets are not up for sale. It has to be won via some radio contest, lucky SMS through...I was never that lucky.

So to cut story short, I cannot see Kris Allen this time around ;( He will have paid performance in Singapore on the 10th, and on any day I will buy the tickets in a heartbeat, but not this time. I'll have to be here, in PD, working!!!

And that is not the best part, ready.....? I am working on the freaking Chinese New Year weekend, not kidding, plant start up being brought forward to capture the high margin. And in this volatile market condition, who am I to say no? I have to cancel my Penang trip with the girls, which is such a bummer...

So February this year is definitely not my fav month, ain't life interesting?

The Trouble with Love is....

I could not hold this anymore. just finished talking to a friend (more like a big sister). She's pregnant with her 7th child and her 'beloved' husband is now having a young girlfriend. She was looking for a shoulder to cry on. She keeps telling me how she loss sleep over the man's behaviour.

That is the problem with women, they love somebody to much and keep everything very dear to them. I keep on telling her its not her fault that the man went out with some young chic. He's probably having the so called 'mid life crisis' - (konon...), man seems to have excuses for all the things that they do in life.

Women makes the biggest mistakes when they love a man more than they love themselves. I guess probably that is the reason I'm not married till today, a friend once said, I'm too in love with myself. Some people define loving yourself by taking good care of themselves, which means you keep in good shape, physically fit all the time.

Well my way of taking care of my self is more on the spiritual side, I have guards, walls, or whatever you may call it, so that I won't be hurt. It would be a lie if I say I never got hurt, but I NEVER let myself to love anybody more than myself (apart from my mother and siblings) but people outside, friends especially, I'm sorry to say, I love myself above you. And I guess that is why I rarely been bogged down if a friend suddenly 'dissapeared' or people don't like me. Because I know nobody would love me like I do, so why bother?

Back to this friend's story, I told her to be strong, she has kids that depends on her. Some other day she will loss appetite and will not be eating after an overnight argument with the 'man'. In the end she and her poor baby will suffer. I tried to remind her to be strong, women are not supposed to rely on men to make them happy, we must make ourself happy. I sort of said something like this to her.. ...

"I know that it is hard, you are husband and wife, he is the father of your kids, but you must be strong, you must not let him determine how you feel, you must take care of yourself, nak-nak lagi ada yang dalam perut tu. The baby will count on you to take care of her, the 'man' don't give a damn. If anything happens, he will surely blame you, so you have to be strong, insyaAllah, Allah is with you.."

The man is egoistic, she said that he told her, if ever you are feeling oppressed, zikir, solat sunat, Allah will help you (pandai kan nasihat orang?) and when my friend did all these and still feels depressed, he said nampak sangat Allah tak sayang my friend. How can he say that, you guys imagine, a woman, pregnant, + kids at home + busy with work, suddenly the husband main kayu tiga with some young chic, hati siapa tak hancur? And he is so bold making that kind of statement.

So again to stress my stand. Do not ever love anybody more than you love Allah, your mother and yourself. I pray the best for her.

p/s: I know some people would give me this statement, ko senang la cakap, ko tak kahwin lagi, cuba dah kawin tgk macam mane?
my answer would be, I learnt from others' mistakes, and I would be a fool if I still repeat what others do, not to say I know everything, am learning at the same time, but I always prioritise myself above anybody else (except my mother) insyaAllah I'll be fine.

Year End BBQ

Tangan gatal nak menulis but I don't know where I put my camera cable and just writing won't do justice to the story. Anyhoo...we had the BBQ last Wednesday. May people turned up but we still have lots of leftovers.

Some prep work behind the scenes...

The guys started lighting up the fire at 5.30pm ish, I rushed home to make the main dish, Vege Fried Rice and Seafood Fried Meehon. Arrived back in Sports Club around 7.00 pm. Already there were one batch of burned chicken... hehehe.....

The weather does not look good, dark clouds were all over us. And right in the middle of the sea I can see the rain is pouring, not a good sign. While some of us moved the food to dining area, which is quite far from BBQ area, the rest of us are still hopeful and even continue 'burning' the chicken under umbrella..huhuhu...

Half of the crowd...the rest under shades, out of the picture ;)

Somebody suggested we should have games, but everybody is so caught up catching up and trying to rescue burnt chicken, so we did not played any games.

Finish clearing up around 11pm-ish, had a lot of helping hands, glad that we managed to pull this through ;) If we can get the same crowd, definitely we can do it again next year.

The Cake is in the Oven

Its end of the year, many people is clearing leave. From this week til new year, we only have 4 work-days a week ;) heaven!!! I have thought about this quite a while, wanted to do a get together with colleague, nasib baik I have Sakina, my cohorts for this pet project. She did the invite,RSVP and such, while I plan for the menu and sort of plan who does what.

The plan : BBQ at Sports Club
The time : This Wed, Dec 16th, after work till midnite?....depends...
The people : SRCPD's staffs, last count, 31 of us ( I was kinda expecting 2 to respond, tapi manalah tahu, the response is overwhelming..hehehe..)
The menu : Still in planning, but roughly have the idea, obviously have to be vegan friendly.

Today after work heading to Jusco S2 to buy more stuffs.

p/s: we did this because we know the co. will not do anything since the budget cut and all...so why not do it our own ;)

Dakwah??

Da‘wah (Arabic: دعوة‎) usually denotes preaching of Islam. Da‘wah means literally "issuing a summons" or "making an invitation", being the active participle of a verb meaning variously "to summon, to invite" (whose triconsonantal root is د ع و). A Muslim who practices da‘wah, either as a religious worker or in a volunteer community effort, is called a dā‘ī, plural du‘āt. A dā‘ī is thus a person who invites people to understand Islam through a dialogical process, and may be categorized in some cases as the Islamic equivalent of a missionary.

I have never thought that I will be part of it. Back when I was a child, da'wah has always been associated with extremist, a group that called themselves Al-Arqam, or the tabligh people. These people either locked their wives at home while they go out on a mission, or let the wifes fend for themselves and the family, while they will go away for months in the name of jihad.

I got the concept all wrong. That is not all about da'wah, there is more to it than just the male went out and preaching about Islam while neglecting their utmost resposible besides Allah, their family. I see the bigger picture now, and actually proud that in a way, I am in it.

Remember when I mentioned about the Ramadhan program? Well, we had a discussion abouth Hadith 40 by Imam An-Nawawi every Friday. And for yesterdays' session, I prepared the slide. Its not that I know about it, just few things that I copied and pasted from the net. We talked about the first and foremost act of all action 'Niat' which is intention, purpose why you are doing certain things.

In Islam, everything that we do must be because of Allah, and as a bonus, the act can be done for other purpose. For example, you study because of Allah, and also because of knowledge, so when you put the intention as to study because of Allah, it becomes an ibadat and InsyaAllah if the study process is done as recommended in Islam, you will be rewarded later (apart from gaining the knowledge).

There is another part to niat, which is the intention to change for the better (hijrah). If all are done because of Allah, we will InsyaAllah be granted the better change that we intended for in the first place. Everything must have a sense of purpose, and this hadith tells us, to whom the purpose should be in the first place, the mighty creator Allah S.W.T. All that we gets apart from that just bonus.

I hope I'll be strong enough to start influencing people that I care (family and friends) towards living a blessed life as Islam always wants it. InsyaAllah..