Away

Its dark outside, the weather has not been kind these past few days. And each day I think I am feeling more like the weather, all dark and gloomy. People seemed to shun away from me. I am actually good at driving people away. Not blaming anybody but I noticed that these past few years I drove many people out of my life.

I am the type that won't work hard in a relationship (meaning friends only). I'll initiate a few meet, but after a while when people keep bailing me out, I walked away. I did not tried to mend whatever that needs to be mend. Same at work I guess. People don't tell me stuffs, people did not come and find me to gossip. I'll be the last one to know about anything, promotions, moves, who is dating who etc...

• friend who is doing Masters passed by a set of questionnaire to the rest of the girls, but not to me
• my movie buddy no longer ask me to go out for movie with them

I drove people away and darn good at that. So what are you still doing here?